It’s been a week or so since my last post, I’m sorry about that. I had so many idea’s for Christmas gift guides and just christmassy posts but life has been hectic, between my masters degree and my job I feel like there is no time. Today I wanted to do a discussion post on something which has been niggling at me for a while and it’s feeling lost in the book community.
The Book Community is something which changed my life so much so for the better, I have made amazing new friends, had amazing opportunities to review books before they come out, interact with authors & more. But sometimes I feel like I’m drowning in this community.
Sometimes I wonder… Maybe it’s my age? I blog mainly about YA but I’m 23 so i’m technically out of that demographic which doesn’t matter largely but when I venture onto Social Media such as twitter I feel out of my depth because i’m sometimes 10 years older.
In regards to the social media aspect, this is something which a lot of people have noticed and commented to me about and that is how Twitter for example is full of drama. I mean absolutely no hate in the slightest but there seems to be a new argument every time I log on and it’s hard to keep up. I’m all for fighting for what’s right, I love people making their voices heard but I’ve seen so much abuse being thrown at others and authors for things such as a person just doesn’t like their books and it makes me not want to log on again. BUT then comes the dilemma of if I don’t log on then I’m losing a place to talk to friends and interact with so many people about our shared interest in books. I have also learnt so much through Twitter, more about international news, diversity and even fights for the Women’s Rights Movement etc.
Another thing which makes me feel lost in the book community is how there is so many books and so little time! There is a constant cycle of books being published and I always want to keep up to date but gosh is it hard! I have books I would love to read but their from series written 5 or so years ago and my brain tells me I shouldn’t get into them now because who would care if I reviewed them? There is undeniably hype in newer books.
Thus brings forth another dilemma into Hannah’s brain. Why am I deciding what I want to read based on statistics for my blog? I try to be so good when thinking about statistics because I’m doing this because I love to read and blog but well my anxiety tells me nobody ever wants to read what I have to say. I try to keep things exciting or do things I know people will like and if someone potentially won’t like a post (like this one) I spend a LOT of time panicking over it.
As I’m writing this i’m realizing that it probably barely makes sense because my brain is full of thoughts and trying to get them coherently down right now is difficult. To summarize I simply feel like I am drowning lately, between my job, uni and my blog. I feel so much pressure on my shoulders and I need a release, which i’m hoping this is. I guess i’m hoping that someone will comment that they completely understand and I will read it and finally breathe knowing it’s not just me.
Let me know in the comments if any of this made sense to you or if you share any of my feelings. I promise I will try to do better. I have so many ideas for posts and I just haven’t got the time right now to execute them the way I want.